Seems like the last time I was "here", things were a lot different...and I guess, in a lot of ways, they were.
October started out rather tragically for us.
We had to say goodbye to someone we loved very much.
In saying goodbye, I also got to thinking about all the people we miss every day that are still around.
When things like this happen, it gives me pause to stop and recall that life is short and fragile. For a moment, I chastise myself for losing track of that. Since Mom died, I try to bring that sense of impermanence farther forward in my brain. I try to bring a philosophy of perspective to my life. I try, and I succeed sometimes and forget at others...but I'm getting better. :D
I recall how surreal life was for me for a while back then, and how the things that generally bother people are so insignificant and petty usually. And how funny it was that anyone lets silly things upset them.
Who cares if someone cuts you off in traffic?
Who cares enough to flip someone off and scream insults that no one else can hear?
So what if the laundry waits for a day?
Is it imperative that every. single. toy make it into the toybox every. single. day?
I mean, really? Reeeeealllly?
It's kinda funny when I think of it and give it all the perspective it deserves.
So, October started out on a sad note, zipped by at amazing speed in retrospect, and ended with affirmation that life goes on.
Spence nearly enjoyed Hallowe'en, for the first time, really, and kinda started to understand what we were all up to...lol. ;)
The neighborhood children, in scary and adorable costumes, came running happily up the drive to get their bribery of candy and appreciation of appearance.
From one life extreme to another...
And life does go on...it's just remembering the little things, and celebrating them, that deserves our attention. Although I don't always recall that, I always try to.
Truth be told, I'm doing better there though.
Better at remembering that the little annoyances are of little import, and the little victories are of major consequence in the scheme of things.
Wouldn't it be nice if we could all remember those things more often?
(especially on the freeway.. lol ;)
Just sayin'
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